Bro.
CINIRAJ MOHAMED
of
SALEM VOICE

I was born on 25th
May, 1954 as the fourth child of Janab
Kassim Pillai Labba, a retired headmaster and Fathima Beevi. My house is known
as “Kochera. It is an ancient, prominent and
orthodox Muslim family at Kalloor, a rural area
in Trivandrum, South India.
More than 4000 Muslim
families inhabiting in our area and some hindus at suburbs. No Christians at
all. There was not even a single Christian in the schools where I was studied.
Our mosque is around
thousand years old. My ancestors spread the religion of Islam in that place and
built the mosque. My ancestral home is very close to the mosque. The land
revenue and the auxiliary records of the mosque were kept in my father’s name
well into my boyhood. My ancestors
were entitled to muslim priesthood by heredity. They had the designation as
“Labba” with their names to indicate the priesthood.
In these
circumstances, I was brought up with great regard and love for Islamic teachings
and its practices and of my family. I did my religious education before I
started regular schooling. No bad habits existed in the way of our family life.
I even wrote a book about the Qur’an.
My college education
was held at a Christian institution called Mar Ivanios College,
which is in Trivandrum city. The vast majority of my college classmates
were Christians. I was only muslim in the class. I had difficulty to mingle with
my classmates in the beginning. But gradually I became close and intimate with
them. Actually it led me to evil associations and wretched habits. I started
smoking, began to use drugs and alcohol, done streaking, being known as rowdy in
the city. Damaging reports and ugly pictures concerning me began to appear in
the news papers. As a result my parents, brothers, sisters and dear ones were
greatly disturbed. It seemed I may
have to discontinue my education. If so I wanted to prove I could succeed on my
own by going to the Arabian Gulf even as a stow-away.
By this time I became addicted on
drugs and alcohol. My body began to shiver and I became very tense if I did not
use drugs at the habitual times. I was on the watch-list of the Police. My
parents cut off the money which they were giving me regularly. I had lot of
friends, ready for any adventure, when I had money in my pocket. As a matter of
fact my earlier friends became my sworn enemies in my period of trial. I lost my
peace of mind.
It was at this
juncture that some missionary students gathered
courage to talk to me. They claimed that Jesus is the Son of God, who was
crucified for the mankind. He rose from the dead and He is the king of peace.
They further claimed that if one believes in Him and confesses all sins he will
become a new person. I could not even imagine that Prophet Isa (Jesus)
is the son of God or that he was crucified and rose from the dead. In
turn exhorted them to reach heaven
by believing in Islam which is the true religion. I had heated arguments with
them on many occasions. They could only find fault with my wretched life, but
could not prevail over my arguments or prove my ideas wrong.
But without losing
heart, one day they brought some leaflets.
The leaflets were based on the Bible which I considered forbidden, for it
is abrogated. Hence I went into a rage. The thought that the advice
that I had given them earlier regarding Islam, had made no impact on them
increased my rage. I tore the leaflets into pieces. With despicable words I
threw the pieces into their faces and I gave warning that I would destroy them
if they continue misleading others.
It was a serious
matter that the students of priesthood in cassocks were publicly insulted and
persecuted, specially in the compound of a Christian institution. It looked
almost certain that I would be expelled from the college. I could also expect
troubles from any direction. The next day I went to the college armed with
weapons, intending to cause violent incidents. When I entered the class the
missionary students ran to me and embraced with love and joy. They surprised me
by expressing regret for having caused mental distress on me. If the college was
run by my religion and I was in the place of a missionary, surely I would not
have let one, persecutes me, scot-free.
In fact, I was touched
by their love, kindness and gentle nature. The Holy Spirit, which reminds us
about sin, righteousness and judgement, began to work upon me.
That night I found a
piece of paper in a text book in my room. On it was written, “The saying is
sure and worthy of full acceptance, that Christ Jesus came to the world to save
sinners, for whom I am the foremost” (1Tim 1:15). On the reverse side of the
paper was written, “For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is
eternal life in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Rom 6:23). I did not know those were
the verses from the Bible. But I was overcome with thoughts.
All the sins, the
violations that I had committed since childhood began to appear before me as if
on a screen. I recognized all my inequities, big and small. Each one of them
transformed into a blister on my body. The blisters burst open and became sores.
The flesh and bones, from where pus began to flow out, became very hot and began
to melt. Worms were competing to get at the marrow of the bones. The pain was
unbearable. The stench could not be described. I was being pulled into a
bottomless pit. There was nobody to save me.
Without realizing I
cried out, “God, save me”.
Then a man, holy and
bright, descended from heaven and touched me. I understood it was Jesus. For a
moment I closed my eyes with a heavenly joy, for His touch cooled my body and
mind. When I opened my eyes all the blisters and sores had disappeared from my
body. I am purified as if washed with a perfumed ointment. But Jesus who came in
bright and spotless was now infected with blisters and sores. Pus and discharges
were flowing out of them. Worms and maggots were roaming freely on his body. It
was like an abominable, foul smelling creature.
Yes! “Surely he has
borne our griefs and carried our sorrows; yet we esteemed him stricken, smitten
by God, and afflicted. But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised
for our inequities; upon him was the chastisement that made us whole, and with
his stripes we are healed” (Is 53:4-5).
Christ had taken on
himself all my afflictions. I should have been condemned to death for all my
sins. But I saw Christ taking on
all my sins and being crucified in my place for my sake.
Earlier I never
believed that Christ was crucified. I
used to ask how our sins would be washed away by his death, even if he was
crucified. But now I was convinced how and for what Christ died.
“For our sake he
made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the
righteousness of God” (2 Cor 5:21).
I saw Jesus breaking
the tomb and rising up from the dead. He was more glorious and resplendent in
resurrection than he descended from the clouds.
I fell at his feet
crying, “My Lord and my God”.
I do not know whether
this experience which occurred me in my own house in an area where there are no Christians,
is a dream, or a revelation or a vision. I was not at all believing such
kind of matters. But this experience transformed me into a Christian.
It enabled me to throw away the old man and made me to become a new man.
I received joy and peace the like of which I never knew before.
I shared my conversion
of mind and joy at the same night to my parents. Although they listened me, but
tried to dissuade saying this was
only a trick played by Iblis (Satan). But
I was convinced that the loving God has saved me through His only Son and that I
would inherit eternal life. As a
result I had to face torture and threats in my life.
I was baptized in the water as soon
as I accepted Him as my personal Saviour. God baptized me with the Holy Spirit
too.
One day I was
narrating my Christian experiences to some of my friends near the mosque.
Suddenly one of my cousin brothers named Salim stabbed me with a knife. My lower
jaw was split. Everybody thought that I may die. But God saved me and made me a
witness again at that place. Salim was making arrangements to murder me in
another way and had a plan to convert it into a suicide.
For the same he was buisily making a noose at the top of a tree. But a
whirl wind blew and Salim fell with the branch of the tree.
He was near to death. Instinctively I wished for his death. But Jesus
ordered me to love and nurse Salim as He had loved me when I was His enemy. At
my initiative Salim was taken to the hospital and was in plaster for more than
six months. When Salim recovered he accepted Jesus as his Saviour.
The Jama’ath authorities chained
me, shaved my head, locked me in an underground cellar when yet another person
became a Christian. When I tried to
escape acid was sprayed on me. I was beaten up several times and even lost a few
teeth. I considered these experiences as lucky de in the name of Jesus and as symbol
of my spiritual fervour.
The Lord visited a few
more people who caused trouble on me. Most of them led to believe in Jesus. My
parents and siblings who banned me from the entire area is now visiting me, and
are willing to pray with me, though in private. My family and I can now visit
with confidence our ancestral home and the adjoining Muslim neighbourhood as
witnesses to the Gospel. The Living God is helping us in that.
I have a
deep burden about those who go astray. Also He empowered me to preach Gospel. By
Gods grace I have already preached before thousands of crowds. Preaching the
Word of God, using the gift of healing, counselling, sharing the testimony are
the part of my preaching ministry.
While many who take
pride in calling themselves Christians look upon gospel work with contempt, I
consider it only God’s grace that I look upon proclaiming the Gospel as a
great honour. My life’s goal and ambition is to show the Muslim world the
truth and thus help them in saving their souls.
The
prayers of God’s children are essential to keep my family and persevering on
the chosen path and to make my parents, siblings and dear ones accept truth
wholeheartedly.
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